EMO me

Last night I was so emo...dont know what got into me. I just didnt want to do anything or talk to anyone.

Probably because i was tired. Woke up this morning feeling a bit better. Will blog again later.

Ciao!

HAPPY BELATED B'DAY YC (aka Mr.Tiara)

Happy Belated B'day to Mr. Tiara!!

I was supposed to go makan with 'em(Ping, Ling & YC) last night! But i caught cold few days ago. Cheh! Wrong timing! Somemore have to makan dinner all by myself at home. I thought i could feel well enough to go last night. That morning, i went to get a cake from Jenni Cake House thinking to myself happily that i can hang out with them at night. Mana tau suddenly i start to sneeze badly again. Even today i'm supposed to go watch Wolverine with Zhe. But now kena quarantine at home. Arrghh!!!

Have to rest myself well to go KL next week.

Ping, post photos for me to see yah~

Assignments' weekend

Been busy over the weekends. I had to rush my assignments again. Seems like every month passes by very fast. Before i knew it, i need to submit my assignments again. My course subjects are getting tougher and tougher now. I'm starting to find it hard to cope. Especially when I'm someone without a related background experience. Most of my coursemates are already working in related field. The only reason they are doin this it's because they needed the degree. There was once they even corrected our tutor!! Whereas i dont have the slightest idea if i was taught correctly. =.="

Assignments are so tough this time around. I hope I can pull this through. Else, it'll be a waste of money.

Better

I tried blogging last night but connection sucks!! So here i am now.

I cried quite a lot but made me feel so much better now. I cool off quite easily. Mum says I dont get angry or upset for long. Still sometimes can feel 'beh kam buan' (i'm human with feelings too).

A soft voice in my head remided me that i need to be a strong & positive person & jus let of the grudge. Can't let my mum see me in swollen eyes. I quickly washed my face & sat in the room doin my usual stuff. Not too long after i saw a msg from a long time friend.

"Wut hppn 2 d girl we used 2 knw? U r nt like tht! U don't cry over jerks. U move on!" her msg said.

I understood what exactly her words meant. Thanks to her, it reminded me of the numerous heartbreaks i had with friends and esp men and how tough i was back then. Thanks girl! You know who u are.

All other friends who concerned, thanks for all the supporting messages left for me at facebook and MSN.

Close Friends Konon!

Close friends! Do they even understood the true meaning of it?

Yes am angry. Altho i just blog abt being hardly angry previously, this time i just cant help it.

I guess i'm more to feeling hurt than angry. I really wanted to confront them abt it. But then again, is there any point to it? They are the way they are. Leave u out whenever they like and come to u when they need help.

I'm the kinda person who doesnt know how to say 'NO'. So i'm always at the loosing end i guess.

I really feel like crying out when i saw their outing photos. Yet the tears wont come out. N i hate crying by myself!

Of cos advice given would be i can find better friends than them. But i jus cant help feeling the stab after so many years of friendship.

Gotta get bac to work. Blog later..